Thursday, June 24, 2010

Fighting Feelings.

I like this guy...the problem is I CAN'T SEE MYSELF BEING WITH HIM. Just because I like someone doesn't mean we should be together..same thing goes for that emotion called LOVE.I've been single for some years now(LOL) and often I say I'm ready for another relationship but I think I'm better off being single at the moment. There is nothing wrong with being single and I don't understand why people sit there on their twitter and fb status saying "oooh i need a man" or"Ohh im so lonely tonight" when you know damn well you are not going to get something long term after that esp. if you got you ass and your breasts all up in the profile pics with your tongue our CHILD PLEASE. Single life is fine by me...I've been working quite well by myself and as I have been more involved with my studies and campus life in general, a relationship is nice but, I don't have time for it right now...leading to one if the reasons why I can't see myself with this guy that I like...that and I don't think were on the same level. I haven't known him for a long time so who am I to judge but I expect someone man or female if they are interested in someone, they will pursue them and he has yet to pursue me in a form of a relationship. I'm not into have a "cutty-buddy" either so that's just out the window. I'm analyzing him but myself at the same time because I'm open but I'm not here to be played. Most men and women are in their prime right now so they want to just live free. I'm enjoying my life right now but it's not for the parties and the foreplay, I don't have the time because I'm trying to make a living and I'm to stay in college as well as graduate in 2013. I also feel that because I am very mature for my age, a lot of men see me as intimidating because I'm so serious with certain topics and that I'm not one of these dumb ass girls flopping around and smacking my lip gloss in everyone's face. The silly GIRLS ( because they obviously are mature enough to be women) who do this daily make the real women like MOI look bad. Now don't get me wrong...I am not stuck up or high maintenance....to keep it real, I want someone who will not bullshit with me and my feelings. I haven't come across him yet and things take time. My last relationship did not work and that has been my only relationship period. I loved my EX but things just didn't work out, he wasn't on my level and he didn't have his head on straight so after 4 years (LOL) I moved on and opened my options...Now that I am in college and I am a women in process growing everyday, I have my fun, I party and play around but I am very serious about my studies and I can't let any man get in the way of that right now, esp if he's not going to support me. Now along the way, I met this guy and I have grown to like him but I'm trying to fight it because I don't know him well and I don't know what his intentions are.I like this guy but maybe what we need is time...who knows.

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